Luck/Fate/Choices

Still no luck on the Man Hunt front. I admit I’m not going at it real hard, but I did send out a few smiles and one email. (I had to buy credits to do that!)and got no response from any of them. Althoug I have been contacted by some very young guys, and a very Old one too. LOL
I see a bit of a pattern here. :confused: In my everyday life I do get a bit of interest from the opposite sex, but it’s never from the guys that I’m interested in or attracted to. I hope the internet thing works out better.

Then, for some reason this afternoon a few guys from my past spent some time on my mind. Men that I was attracted to, and now that I look back on it, I think were attracted to me too. I was just too stupid or slow to pick up the hints. :crazy:

I remember one guy that was a “friend”. Silly me, I really thought he was really just a friend. We trained together in Martial Arts and we went to a couple of tournaments together, and even spent one night in the same bed, no sex, no kissing even, just a bit of cuddling. I can still remember the obvious tension as we both fought to keep things platonic. It was hard becasue we were both quite prominant in our dojo, and he was a bit younger than me. It was somethign that could’ve casued quite a stir. That night we talked about how we were attracted to each other but that neither of us wanted to “ruin our friendship”.

He left town shortly after that, and everytime he came back he looked me up. Never once did I make a bit of an effort to tip us across that line. I regret that now, because I really liekd him, and he was a good guy, and when I look back on it now, the way he kept looking me up and writing to me meant that he felt the same. Ofcourse, I started to travel more, and moved a few times, and I stopped gettign his letters. My own fault. I’ve always been horrible at keeping in touch.

I wonder if I can track him down through the internet? I bet if I did, I’d find him married with a kid or two. I don’t regret the adventures I’ve been on, but sometimes it feels like everyone else has grown up,(ie:settled down and started families) and I’m a female Peter Pan still searching for NeverNeverLand.