Sunday

It’s a bright sunny day and the birds are chirping like mad right outside my window. I love the birds chirping much more than the neighbors kids running and screaming, but Mystery teh cat is driven a little crazy by the birds chirping. She goes into full hunter mode and slinks across the room to peek over the window sill at the big tree where the birds sit. I’d open up the door to the sun deck for her but I’m scare she’ll make a leap for a bird and fall three stories to the ground. Or perhaps get stuck in the tree and not be able to get down. She’s always been an indoor cat so that is entirely possible, then I’d have to call the fire department to rescue her.

Hmmm, maybe I should let her out on the deck. :angel:

Sorry I haven’t been a good blogger lately. I’m still in some sort of limbo. But on the edge of limbo if that makes any sense? I’ve made the decisions on how to get some positive changes in my life (the going back to work thing, and deciding on a new writing project, and thinking about a new fitness plan) but not all things have been put into place yet. But they all start this week, so I’m anticapating a week of “Oh my God! What was I thinking?” then hopefully I’ll be back to feeling like a normal person.

By that I have to say, I haven’t been feeling like ME for a long time. I’ve always been passionate in all that I do. I’m also, more often than not, quit opinionated. (But to me, they are opinions and I’m entitled to them. I voice them strongly, but I also acknowledge that they are only my opinions. Others don’t have to agree. I just prefer they do. LOL ) I always used to say “Life is for living“, and I think that’s what I’ve stopped doing.

In my all or nothing way, I stopped living a lot of my life to focus on one aspect. My writing. Building a career. And that’s going to change. :attack:

Please do not think I regret anything I’ve done. I do Not. I love what I’ve done. I made the choice to focus 150% on my writing and to build myself a niche, and I feel I’ve done that. And I will continue to write. Only now I’ve realized that the writing part of my life has become like all the others – In need of change.

It’s me, I thrive on change. It makes me feel like I’m growing, like I’m learning, like I’m alive. So, while I will continue to write erotic fiction, I’m also starting a new project. (I’ll tell you all about it when I’m further into it. I promise you. And I really do think you’ll all love it too!) Let me say again, I will continue to write erotic fiction, it feeds a certain part of my spirit that I thoroughly enjoy. So, yes I will continue to write, and I am going back to work 5 shifts a week, and I’m going back to the gym. These are all things I’ve talked about many times…finding a balance. Only this time I’m not so much looking to find a balance as I am planning on living life.

Yep, I enjoy writing, and bartending, and even working out. So I’m going to do all three – screw balance and screw planning. I’m just going back to doing what I enjoy, and what I want. I’m young and single with nothing to tie me down..so why not remember that and do all that that I want to do…just because I want to?

Sort of like Samair, the heroine in TROUBLE. You see, I’ve always known that I put a bit of myself into all of my heroines, but the part I put into Samair is a part I seem to have lost in myself for a while. Thank you to Raine for talking about Trouble and Samair in her recent blog post, and reminding me what It was.

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😳 That blog post sort of turned into a real ramble that I never planned. But I’m going to leave it, because it’s true…and I miss chatting with you all about things other than books. Now that I’ll be living a biut more, I’m sure the blogging will liven up again too.