Working it.

I’m way behind on my plans for 2015. I’m not even a third of the way into the next Overwatch book. Yeah, the one I hoped to release in March. Might still make it, by the end of March or in time to have some ARCs at The Novel Experience, if luck can stick with me for just a bit.

 A while ago I blogged about having an Occular Stroke. It seemed like such a small thing. An artery in my eye bursting, and creating some blurryness. Well, turns out it’s a bit more than that. I started getting the injections to help heal it right away, and silly me, I thought they’d just sort of effect me for the day or two after the injection, but it didn’t.

When I went in at the start of Feb to get the last one I told the Dr. I wanted to stop because I’d had more headaches in the past 4 weeks than I’ve had in the past 5 years. (Needless to say I didn’t get much any writing done in January.) And some days, when I don’t have a headache, my vision is just fucked up. I can’t even read anything, glasses on or off, everything is just fucked. No matter how big I made the font on the screen, I couldn’t seem to get anything in focus. I started to use dictation on emails and some things, but I’m struggling with trying to dictate the story because when I write, I don’t really think. I know that sounds bad, but I just sort of get into character and then type, and if I think too hard, I stall out. Well, the dictating makes me think too hard. LOL

The other thing that’s kept me from writing is visiting the Stroke Prevention Clinic. I went there in January to have a shitload of tests done, and they confirmed that I do not have Diabetes, or high blood pressure. My BP is in fact, a bit low, but not at a point of concern yet. My cholesterol is fine, my heart is fine…the only thing they can see that is a risk factor for me is my weight, and stress situations. (And last year was very stressfull for me with two very unexpected deaths and the side effect from those as well as launching the Overwatch series and getting back to my career) They took some blood for more tests (14 Tubes!!) and I haven’t heard anything major, so I’m assuming all turned out well there. However, I still have to go into the clinic and be monitored for my weightloss and stress levels because without a clear indicator of why I had the ocular stroke, they’re saying it was basically a warning sign of a brain stroke to come if I don’t get my shit together, fast.

Yep, nothing like that for a kick in the ass to help me get me back into a regular exercise routine. But, I’ve never been a person who thrives on ‘regular’ or ‘routine’ so it’s hard for me. I made the choice to not worry about being behind on my writing, because stressing about it really is not a healthy thing. 🙂 I hate to disappoint readers, and myself, because I’d planned to have the next Overwatch book for the conference in April, but I have to remember what’s important here, and if I want to keep writing for years to come, I need to find a way to live a healthier lifestyle right now. So that’s taking precedence over everything else, including writing.

I’m also still getting the eye injections (Another one on Tuesday, Yay!) because despite me feeling like it’s getting worse, the Doc assures me it’s working and the swelling has gone down and the fluid is disappearing. So, I’m behind on pretty much everything, but I’m still going. And I’m being a good girl on the diet and exercise front. Mostly. (I was doing good until my stationary bike broke almost 2 weeks ago, now I need to find a gym nearby)

This does mean not getting near as much writing done as I wanted/planned. But I’m still moving forward, slowly but surely, and thats all that matters. When you want something, you don’t give up. Right?